I've decided to stop blogging. Whatever positives I believe to gain from the practice, I have decided that they are far outweighed by the negatives. With the obsessive planning of posts that is a constant in my head, the writing of the posts that often keeps me up far too late at night, the odd combination of elation and embarrassment I feel when praised for what I write, the frustration and isolation I feel when my writing is misinterpreted or challenged, the discomfort I have with the inherent narcissism of it all ... I've finally come to the realization that blogging is simply taking up far too much of my time and mental space. I may be back someday, but right now, it just isn't working.
To be quite frank, I'm just plain tired of listening to myself.
"And they write innumerable books; being too vain and distracted for silence: seeking every one after his own elevation, and dodging his emptiness." --T.S. Eliot
"Because in the school of the Spirit man learns wisdom through humility, knowledge by forgetting, how to speak by silence, how to live by dying." --Johannes Tauler
Thank you to all who have read and commented over the past couple of years.
And now I'm off to be present in my life once more. Peace!
Peace be with you, friend.
ReplyDeleteOn a different yet similar note, I almost wish our group would unplug from FB. Like collectively so I wouldn't miss out on anything...because omg I need to go away.
I had a bit of a mental breakdown last night, culminating in my decision to stop blogging. I also told Stephen that, even though I'm not going to eliminate FB from my life, I've decided to become more of an observer than an active participant. I JUST need to shut. the fuck. up.
DeleteWe need a chat. <3
ReplyDeleteIndeed. <3
DeleteLove you Ali, I hope you find the respite you need!
ReplyDeleteThanks, E. Love you too.
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